Clocks...tick tick tick

So as a women we all understand that at one point we will start hearing the whimsical Tick Tock Tick Tock of our body's biological clock. I never thought I would be 26 when I started to hear it, in a way. A heavy percentage of my friends are either married, engaged or parents. Since when did the 20's become the time to start your FAMILY life, I've always thought that the 20's was meant for learning lessons about life, work and finally becoming who you are meant to be. Apparently for me it is, lets see I'm 26 at home living off my parents, working part time at a barley entry level job. What happened? I was just on my own making a living and starting my life and now Im back at ground zero and in debt up to my eyeballs. When do I get to be carefree? I guess this is my chance to learn from my mistakes, my chance to start over and better myself in areas I may lack. Go back to school and try to get back to making it on my own! Hopefully by the time Im 30 I'll finally get that chance to START my life in a family of my own but no rush for now, as much as I may feel the push from my friends for that wedding bug or baby bug. Im not ready for that no way no how! I need to focus on school and career just hope I can get my mind straight. Im so jumbled from being depressed about where my life went and is at the current moment. I need to look at the things that I have: 1.) A roof over my head 2.) Friends and Family who support me and give me advice readily when I need it 3.) A Man who loves me despite ALL my downfalls! With every closed door god opens a window, This is my storm Im just waiting for the calm and the breeze of fresh air!

Sometimes you learn things the hard way!

Sometimes life hands you lemons and you have to make lemonade, Im currently waiting to buy some sugar so that I can get rid of this bitter taste!

I learned a huge lesson this year, the business world is cut throat and your boss is NOT your friend, no matter how close you are. I really cant believe how petty he is being and how much sense he is NOT making, How do you downsize someone and yet complain about their past years work and complain about having to pay them. If you're not happy with someone you cut them loose! Right? No some how he thinks moving them out of state and lead them on to beleive that they are an essential part of the company for a few weeks until you email them that they are not needed and you cut them down professionally. Seriously! I cant believe how petty a grown man can be, better buisness beauru Im a knockin, Im sure I can find plenty of labor laws violated by him! I mean you are supposed to actually pay your employees on time right? withholding funds for a month has to be illegal! oh well!

But Im not going to get down to his level IM GOING TO BE THE PROFESSIONAL ONE! I emailed him respectfully back and have no intention of ever speaking with him or using him as a refferal, no bridges burned! but it is now a lesson learned that I will always keep with me.

Best of luck in the buisness world hopefully you can pay your employees on time in the future! PEACE OUT PEOPLE!

And I become another statistic....

So kiddies, I'm back home in good ole Cal-if-orn-I-A! Im pretty happy to be home def. alot less stressed at first. Let me tell ya folks, I got a great welcome home gift... a PINK SLIP! yep I got the axe. I cant believe it Laid Off! It was a complete mind-F_ _ K!!!!!!

Now I'm on the search for a new job and looking at the silver linning:

1.) No more dreading going to work for a boss who is snide and makes me feel bad about myself.
2.) No more freaking out about not being paid cause well A) till I find a job I wont be B) any new job will be WAY more reliable than this one
3.) Finding something Im passionate about. I want to have fun at work! :)

So the new chapter of my life begins.... and I'm alone... No not that kind of alone, Sheldon is back in texASS and I'm missing him. I cant believe how much I think about him throughout the day! I miss cuddling w/ someone at night! He met my family FINALLY and they all really liked him. Like I think my dad has a man crush on him.. they were really buddy buddy I suspect a bromance! haha

Hopefully my texas life will come out here and visit soon! Im starting to miss it, Im in kind of a funk right now! I think I just need a good night out w/ friends! :)

TIME! With time comes change!

TIME! for a new blog update!!!

So kiddo's Im no longer residing in the wonderful state of Texas, its offical Im a California girl once again. Its so nice to be back and Im LOVING the weather! My most wonderful boyfriend drove me out here 22.5 hours... (I drove all of THREE long hours! haha) Straight through it took 25.5 hours to drive all the way. NEVER AGAIN .... Im a flyer from now on!

Anyways will be shackin up w/ the roomates once again AKA the parents. Hopefully by Novemember I'll find out if Im moving to Orange County or Los Angeles and will joyfully be decorating my own place once again! Yay for being a grown up!

Sheldon is going to hopefully join me depends on if he finds a job or not, so hopefully this California economy throws me a bone and I can have my Mr. Fix it move out here with me... I wouldnt mind it I really want a male roommate anyways. HA!

I cant believe how fast this year has gone by and SO much has changed in a VERY short period of time.

Oprah makes EVERYTHING better!

Ok so I guess I got really lucky last week when the Free KFC grilled chicken meal came out, cause I tried it and was thanks Oprah that was tasty...but I'm starting to think it was a front... straight up KFC Trickery ya'll! I just got another meal but this time it was purchased, I went in thinking "Hey I Liked it the first time" Dude I got JACKED!!! the chicken was no where near as juciy and good as it was the FREE time around and the 2nd piece they gave me was like chicken for a baby i swear it had to be a chicks wing it was so small. 4.99 for THAT! seriously No complaints about the slaw or mashed taters though Yum Yum In My Tum Tum for sure! That HAD to be for promotional reasons, but staying true to form if thats the case Oprah got duped again!!! Where's the masked superhero when you need him, for real was watching the news and some dude in Kentucky or somewhere is going around town in a cape and mask trying to be an authority figure to criminals... ah the life of a 30 something virgin cant bag on him for getting his kicks any way he can! Anyways just wanted to rant about my meal...... venting finished!

Bad News Bears

Ever just have one of those weeks when you just feel like WOW the suck fest just keeps on coming? I should have known monday.... Death is always a good start to a week right? (Please read the sarcasm). Its hard to say good bye to someone when A.) they dont speak HUMAN and B.) your 1300 miles away. By that I mean our family dog Torrie Anne (AKA Mama's or Torrie Anner Bananer). Going home just isnt gonna be the same cause I dont get to see chewy run up to his BFF, or roll on the carpet hugging her and messing w/ her paws :( it was her time to go and I have to accept that I just wish I could have been there. I guess that started my downward spiral cause finding that out just made me mad cause I couldnt be there to tell her I LOVE YOU and spend her final moments w/ her like I have with ALL our pets. Not being there made me mad and who cares if its just a dog some people dont understand that pets are FAMILY! I dont care if you dont think they comprehend that but thats what I feel and I'm 100% positve that a few others agree.

Tuesday was a start of a new day and trying to put the past behind me I had to deal w/ incompetent people at the wonderful world of AIG. I hate when stupid people dont know how to do thier own jobs so they make you work 4X's at hard! This continued on most of the week and I let it get me. Youre never supposed to take work problems home and I do and I just love breaking the cardnial rule.

Most of the week I've just been dealing w/ my own inner demons, I dont know why because ONE person burned me in the past that now I have such lack of trust in men. They say if you accuse someone enough youre giving them permission to just go ahead and cheat because you already assume they are anyways. I was watching Maury during my lunch break and I see this couple who was married 10 years. The husband confessed he cheated 10 times. The idea of someone being unfaithful makes my stomach turn. How could a woman want to stay w/ a man like that. This is the part that gets me, she says its cause she loves him and he confesses to her "I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW" how can you love someone SO much and yet go behind thier back multiple times and CHEAT? HOW???? then come back and say I love you. I just dont get it. I've always thought if you want to cheat end it. I mean Is it a glory thing to see if you can get away with it? I dont get some people. So now I'm sitting here thinking to myself I never itially trust men because of things in my past or things that have happened to others and I know i've gone into more than one relationship this past year (well last year as well) just biting my lip and going for it blind. Saying "I TRUST YOU" knowing deep down i dont really trust anyone. How can anything ever work out W/Out trust? Is it really trust even if you cant forget the past?
Can I be blindly happy and be cheated on. I guess so, just makes me wonder if Im ever gonna know what true love is since I can never get past my own issues. Am I being fake when I say I LOVE YOU to someone who deep down I never really trusted just because he's a man?

Ah gotta love life and its strange lessons!

On a happy note the cubs are 7 - 4 hitting 3rd in Rank not bad for week 3!

Did that really JUST happen?

So its the day before Easter and all of our procrastinators i.e. ME decided to go out to walmart to buy eggs and dye. If you have ever been to walmart you know of the sea of cars you have to drive to just to find a spot. As I'm waiting I see someone up front leaving so I turn down the isle and proceed to get my spot. Low and behold Miss green explorer floors it and turns her blinker on. First of all um NO that's clearly my spot. Luckily I was able to not have it swiped and as I exit my car i see her curse at me from her rear view mirror. CLASSY! After this incident I proceed to walk to the store and then trip in front of a family walking out. The eldest son actually bursts out in laughter and says "I saw that" FML! seriously it would have to me to fall like that!. As I continue on into the store Miss Classy Mouth Mcgreenexplorer follows me in. I foresee her mouthing off or something because i took "her" spot but no I am NOT that clairvoyant she proceeds to ram me in the side w/ her cart. SERIOUSLY RAMMED her cart into my actual body and then smirks. Mr. Welcome to Walmart is just looking at me like "did that just actually happen" I was speechless all i have to say now is "thanks for the bruise fat whore!" I didn't do anything because I chose to be a better role model for her son yes people her son (lets say 5 - 7 years old) was with her during this act of aggression. I really hope he doesn't grow up w/ her same morals.
anyways Happy Easter!